I'm on the outside, I'm looking in

2008-02-26T10:33:50Z

Title: I'm on the outside, I'm looking in
Pairing: Meredith/Addison
Rating: i think PG-13/R (Not too sure)
Disclaimer: I don't own GA. They're Shonda's.
Summary: Mer/Addie one-shot. Derek's POV and Derek-centric.
Words: approximately 450 words.
A/N: This is my first fic and English is my 2nd language, so it probably sucks. But give it an try and review at the end. Thanks. Title is from Staind's song "Outside".

I never expected this. I know Bailey doubted me not being mentally challenged (which I’m not, right?) but this….this goes way beyond any limits. I think even the Nazi would be flabbergasted by this sight.

It makes sense though…I hurt both of them. I won’t ever forget Addison’s fear and desperation after I caught her with Mark or Meredith’s stunned face when she heard Addison pronounce the word “husband”.

Husband…I don’t think she remembers that I was her husband as she licks a path from Meredith’s earlobe to her neck, biting and sucking, willing to leave a mark. Maybe to prove that it’s her territory? Probably. No, surely.

Addie’s got her up against the wall in an empty exam room, not far away from the one that cut the LVAD wire of my marriage. Meredith tangles her fingers in my ex-wife’s hair as they kiss passionately, Addie’s thigh slipping between her legs. She seems to love this as they grind slowly against each other, pulling up each other’s scrub tops. A bra flies in my direction and stops violently in the window: it’s the Victoria’s Secret set I bought her for our 10^th anniversary. Meredith cups her firm breasts and takes a nipple in her mouth, circling it with her tongue and sucking it gently. She rolls Addison around so that she’s in control now and kneels before her. The scrub pants come off in the blink of an eye and she rips the rather expensive panties and throws them, ironically, in the same direction as the bra. I see Addison pout at the destruction of her underwear but all signs of displeasure fade away as the intern buries her head between her long legs. Her right leg goes on Meredith’s shoulder and her palms glue themselves to the wall in an effort to keep steady as her orgasm is obviously close. It should hurt, right? I mean, for me to watch them. So far I don’t feel anything but shock and a bit of disgust. She throws her head back and I see her mouthing Meredith’s name. Actually, I think I can hear her scream it…and now it’s not just a mute film that I’m watching where the characters happen to be my ex-wife and ex-girlfriend but I’m assisting the worst humiliation of my life. Addison’s scream made it real. They don’t hate each other; on the contrary. Meredith comes up to kiss Addie and I feel tears on my cheeks. This is more than I can take so I have to leave. Leave this hospital, this city, this miserable life and never ever come back.

From the corner of my eye I think I saw them realizing they had been watched.

flaming_jigsaw

I'm on the outside, I'm looking in